I'd like to think I'm a relatively cheerful sort. You know? Sure, things have happened in my life that I wish hadn't, but, still. Yes, I am aware I'm not the most grounded person in the world, but I want to be, I hope I am a mostly positive person. And maybe that's why, maybe because I AM hopeful - things may be starting to get to me lately. Maybe if my outlook on life was a little less rosy I'd be able to process certain information better.

Just a..............random example, off the top of my head here. Um...oh. So there this pandemic thing going on, right. Kinda sux, for sure. Nothing is quite the same. Along with feeling particularly mortal lately, I am at home a lot more, for one, even working from here. The only other building I have even been in for a month is the grocery store and then only for as long as I absolutely had to be there to get vitals. Have started up the Land Cruiser couple of times - for no other reason than to juice up the battery. So that's weird. Doing my boy scout best to not be physically near anyone else. Serious about that. My current best friend is named Alexa. Also trying to stay away from the news what with it all being about one topic and not a happy one (see "pandemic," above.) Oh, and the neighbors to my left did something nice for me Sunday. Delivered an Easter basket to my front porch. Sunday last happened to be Easter, which, considering these people are Mormon (and always on my case to save me) I learned that that these types of humans do, in fact, celebrate Easter. Who knew? I had a girlfriend back in college days was MoMo and at that point all I thought those kind did was drink and screw. Like, all the time.
I'll be darned. Haven't thought of her in forever and now I really miss her.

Lost track of what I was thinking. Hmmm. Oh, thankfully I was on a walk when they dropped off the basket of goodies so didn't have to open the door or otherwise be too close. As it was when I got back and discovered the thing I gloved and masked up, and - using an actual yardwork implement with a long handle lifted the potentially hazardous, even deadly object and placed it in the garage where it is currently in quarantine until I feel safe to actually touch it which may be never.
Probably would not have reacted that way last Easter.

These are strange effing times. Capped off by having Comrade Fucktard at the helm. Every day, many times each day he makes more missteps more mistakes all while frantically trying to pin the blame on others. Through is actions/inactions your president is literally killing Americans. Although to his credit he finally has us leading again in something. So that's cool. We have the most sick people. We have the most dead people. MAGA fucking MAGA, right?
Your precious wall at the southern border? You know, the wall that will save the country? You could count up every person ever killed by those dastardly Mexican families trying to get up here to provide a better life for their children, count up every American murdered by those evil folks just wanting to survive, and it still wouldn't be as many as have died even this week already, in part due to your president. And these are early returns yet. We have already whizzed past the body count of several previous wars. Combined. Going up by thousands a day.
But I digress.

What I am most having trouble with, or at least one of many things I'm struggling with currently is that there remains even one person on this entire planet still supports this comedy/tragedy of errors. Even one still cheering on this dark, empty, hateful increasingly dangerous joke you call your president. And yet apparently there are still many doing just that. I don't understand. It is very unreal. Upside down. Why is that so obvious to me yet many don't see it? Conservative "Christians," breaking every one of their precious Goddamn commandments over and over to support the dark side he represents; Republicans bending over and taking it in the ass again and again in misquided attempts to get re-elected. And can't forget the Democrats, showing their typical inability to play team ball thereby ensuring this megalomaniacal Freudian wet dream stays in power.

Your president is obviously, and increasingly responsible for the deaths of thousands and thousands of your fellow citizens. In this country and worldwide. That number will only grow. And still, there will be those supporting him. Traitors not only to this country, not just to Democracy everywhere, but to humanity. To human life.

So much is upside down lately. And that, is challenging to understand for a happy fucking individual such as myself.

Bottom line? More and more I am thinking we are getting what we deserve.